Apr 20 2009
Starting to freak out.
I had a huge awakening yesterday and I’m starting to freak out. Below, is a picture I took of my twin-filled belly at 18 weeks 5 days:
That’s big. No, I’m not saying I look fat or anything silly like that. It’s just, I don’t usually look that big until around seven months. Around seven or eight months is when I start getting uncomfortable and useless because bending over, standing, lifting, all becomes a massive chore. Usually, that’s fine and normal, because I have had time to prepare for the arrival of my baby and am, for the most part, set and ready to bring them home.
Right now, I’m nowhere near ready to bring these babies home. According to my doctor, there is a good chance that I deliver around 36 weeks, full term for twins. That is only 17 weeks from tomorrow. That would mean I’m more than halfway through this pregnancy.
Now, I know my babies, and I know they really love to cook as long as possible, so I’m fairly convinced they won’t be making an appearance until 38 or 39 weeks. However, no matter when they come home, I have a feeling my enormous belly will keep me from getting things ready much sooner than it did with my singleton pregnancies.
So, my belly picture started getting me all freaked out. Suddenly, I feel this major urgency to get our teeny house organized and ready to double our kid load. I look around everywhere and see things that need to be organized, given away, or thrown away. I see our huge, bulky dressers that are going to have to be replaced with pricey closet organizers simply because we need every inch of this house free as possible.
It’s overwhelming, to say the least.
Today, I am making it my task to clean out the hall closets and organize things there. I figure that’s an okay start. This weekend, Turk and I are planning on tackling what will be the twins’ room but is now our office/catch-all room. We have so much stuff we need to get rid of, and even more that we need to buy. A smaller desk, closet organizers, shelves…
I want, more than anything, to have this place as organized as possible before I’m anywhere near delivering the twins. I want to come home to a place where I know exactly where the diapers are, and which drawers hold which child’s clothes. I want to be able to walk through rooms without bumping into furniture.
So, yep, I’m freaking out a bit and my mind is, once again, zooming in a million directions as I try and figure out how we are going to successfully fit a family of six in our less than 1100 sqft house.
Do what you can do and try not to freak out. I know, easier said than done. Do you have any friends/neighbors/church friends who could come help out? Neighborhood teens? You’ll get it done and then laugh at yourself for being so stressed… and don’t be stressed. Send positive vibes to those two babies!
I think because you’re having double the baby you are nesting a bit early. But good for you…I remember wanting to purge all our crap before James was born. I felt like I needed to live in complete organization.
Didn’t happen, but whatever. 
Hey, there is a family of 8 that lives across the street from me. In a 1000 sq ft house! It can be done…apparently. You’ll make it work!