Silly Mom Thoughts

Today is day two in a row of not spewing my guts out! Dare I hope that my morning sickness is gone for good?

Why, yes. Yes, I do.

Because my brain hasn’t been focused solely on keeping my lunch down, I began letting it think of other things today. That was a dangerous move because suddenly, reality is sinking in.

We’re having twins. In 24 weeks or less. We will be doubling our kid load with one shot. Holy crap.

Though it may sound silly to not stress about this, I’m honestly not worried about the idea of having four kids. I know how to take care of newborns, infants, toddlers, preschoolers… I know two will be slightly more challenging, but I know I can do it.

I’m more worried about other, more trivial things. Like space. And money.

See, we live in a 1080 sqft house with three bedrooms. No biggie, two kids to a room will work fine, but we need to get seriously creative with closet organization. I have my eye on a sweet closet organizer thingie at Home Depot and it ain’t cheap.

Bug and Bean need a bunk bed. I have been told that a bunch of friends and family are going in on part of a payment for one, and I’m so grateful, but to get the kind we need (with a ladder that doesn’t go straight up, but rather at an incline), we still have to fork out a few hundred of our own dollars.

Cha-ching!

There are some things that we will need, that I hope I can find cheap. Like baby swings, an extra high chair and Boppy pillow, clothes (especially if they’re preemies), and all of the other stuff I need one more of. Baby crap adds up so fast!

Then there are other things that I wouldn’t necessarily think about, except the fact that we’ll soon be a family of six. Like the fact that we have only a three person couch and no love seat. We’re going to have to get at least a love seat soon or no one is going to have a seat (especially if/when we have visitors).

Of course, we still have an incomplete house project from last summer that has left us with no molding on the floors and around the doors, new doors that need to be cut and put in, and paint that needs to be touched up. And, I really want to paint the babies’ room before they come too. And install new carpet. Our carpet is so disgusting, I just want nice, new, durable carpet in our rooms.

Then, there’s a selfish part of me that wants our master bedroom to become our cozy refuge. Our mattress is still on the floor, since I have been waiting patiently for us to be able to afford a nice bed frame. I want to paint our walls a romantic but soothing color. I want bedside tables with reading lamps instead of a broken dresser from IKEA.

Granted, I realize most of these things aren’t necessary for us to bring our babies home. But, my pregnant mind is nesting, and I really want a fresh start when they arrive, and for things to be as organized and comfortable as possible. I want my house to feel more like a home, because I have a feeling that I’m going to be spending a whole lot of time here until the twins get older.

I think maybe I need to start making more money.