Mar 05 2009
Pregnancy Nightmare
Okay, all you dream analyzers, help me out with the doozie of a nightmare I had last night. It really disturbed me both in my dream, and even after I awoke. It disturbed me so much, in fact, that I’m sitting here, still in bed, typing this blog out. So, this pregnancy nightmare is straight from my still groggy brain to you.
In my dream I was at the hospital and suddenly realized that I had birthed my babies and somehow hadn’t seen them yet. I wasn’t a patient or anything, either, which is weird, but hey, it was a pregnancy dream. I went up to the reception desk and explained that I had a baby and I wanted to see her. The lady smiled, found my chart, and said, “Oh, here we are! You had a little girl named Lylee. I’ll send for her.”
I looked at the lady like she was nuts. “Lylee?” I asked.
“Yes, that’s what we named her since you weren’t there,” the lady explained.
“Well, we’ll have to change that, my other daughter is already Lily. I don’t need a Lylee and a Lily running around!”
Soon, a large male nurse came, carrying my beautiful baby girl. She was perfect. I reached out to hold her and stopped, panicking. I turned to the receptionist.
“Wait, I had twins, where’s my other baby?” I shrieked at her.
The receptionist fumbled around with my paperwork for a while, checking, double checking, and shook her head.
“I’m sorry,” she said quietly, “You only had one baby.”
That was when I started hyperventilating. I knew I had two babies. There was no way I was only taking one of them home, perfect and beautiful though she may be. I collapsed to my knees and cried, screamed, gasped for air, and cried some more. I was making a tremendous scene.
The receptionist contacted my doctor who sent down some paperwork for me to read.
“Lindsay told us after Lylee was born that there should have been twins. I saw a possible tissue evidence that there had been twins at one time, but only one baby made it to term, the other was gone in the early weeks.”
I composed myself and left the hospital, though I don’t think they would let me take my baby girl with me. I drove down the road, heartbroken and exhausted from crying.
“And then there was one,” was my final thought, before I awoke.
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Terrifying pregnancy dream, right?
There is only one explanation I can think of for it. This pregnancy, unlike my previous pregnancies, I have had very few dreams about the gender of the babies. The only other dream I had, in fact, was centered around a boy. In that dream, I knew there was another baby also, but the entire dream was focused around the little boy.
So, my only explanation is that this pregnancy dream was merely telling me that the other twin is a girl. Why the pregnancy dream decided it must be a pregnancy nightmare to get the point across is beyond me, but that’s honestly the only explanation I can think of, other than the horrible, unthinkable possibility that I really will only give birth to one baby.
If you love dissecting dreams, I’d love to hear your take on it. Oddly enough, though I was sad when I first woke up, the longer I am awake, the more excited I am for what I saw in my dream. This makes me think it wasn’t meant to be a dream of loss after all.
Pregnancy dreams are so weird. I don’t think you can analyze them, they are so weird. I had this dream when I was pregnant: I was at the doctor’s office for a routine exam when all of sudden the doctor pulled my baby out, showed it to me, and then said, “Nope. He’s not ready yet.” She proceded to put him back inside of me and then sent me on my way. It was like she was checking a turkey in the oven. “Nope, needs a few more hours.” No explanation for this, just weird.
I’m sure alot of mothers pregnant with twins have this nightmare, or a version of it. Seems like it would be a common fear to me…losing one of the babies. I’m sure Susan is right, and it’s your fears working their way into your dreams.
Relax, breathe, and enjoy your pregnancy!
Love ya,
Angel
I think it was just a fear of carrying two babies. Even though it may not be a consistent or overwhelming fear, I’m sure it’s crossed your mind. Carrying one baby to full term can be stressful at times, I’m sure carrying two is slightly more stressful.
I just think your subconscious was working out some deeply hidden fears and it manifested in your dream. I wouldn’t worry too much about it, but it will probably disturb you for a while.
One thing I learned about dreams is that once you told it or wrote it out, look at the language you used to describe the dream and it will give you a clue to its meaning.
I also don’t believe it was a premonition. Just a disturbing dream.
They key here is your sense in the dream that you were not a patient even (though you were supposed to be carrying twins) and the name of the baby Lylee, which is just the writer in you making a typo error in the spelling of your child Lilly.
This, therefore, is not a dream of the future, but of the past__that, until the twins are born, you have only one child that requires your physical attention. This is a dream about Lilly. The hospital has no records of other babies because they have not been born yet.
Don’t panic over it
I had a dream when pg with Matthew and I also had him but was apparently out of it for like a week and when I came to, my family had named him Fred Leggy. 
I flipped out on them LOL! Though we don’t like to talk about it, we always have a fear of losing our baby during pg. Your just working through some of your fears at night, which is really not all that helpful when you’re not getting that rest you so desperately need! Hugs hon! I am praying for you and those beautiful babies 
My mom said she had a dream she had puppies while pg with me. Poor thing 
Love ya!
Thank you so much for your replies! You’re right, I’m sure it was a manifestation of my fears. I have crazy vivid dreams without pregnancy hormones, this is outta control!
Robert- Funny you mention the Lily thing. I didn’t include it in this post, but during my dream I stopped and thought, “Wait, this is about Lily, not the twins.” Immediately, Lily was there, along with her baby sister, as if to tell me, “Nope, this isn’t about me.” Though I see your point, you could definitely have it right!
Strangely, all day today I am running into twin babies. I think it’s God’s sign to me that my pregnancy dream was just that… a dream.
I think it was your fears. I remember having crazy, crazy dreams when I was pregnant and after from lack of sleep. Very scary dreams.
I think you are nervous about the babies health and it is coming out in your dreams.
I hope you have a happy fun dram tonight.
Binz, More often than not, our dreams are full of metaphors for something else going on in our lives. I don’t think the dream had to do with the babies directly. It has to do with fear and loss. Right now in your life, the most extreme example of fear and loss is represented by loss of a twin. You are going through stuff right now that involves both fear and pending loss which is why you dreamed about only one baby. You are also rekindling a former loss. Your inner self is telling you to work through your loss and fears so you can find peace. It is also telling you that you have much joy to come when those new little babies arrive. Good times ahead.