Silly Mom Thoughts

Normally, I am a fairly optimistic, look-for-the-silver-lining kind of girl, but lately I’m having a hard time staying positive. There are a number of things going on on my life, and it feels as though it has all hit me at the same time. None of it is devastating, though most of it is depressing, and I’m simply thankful that it isn’t worse.

If I were wearing a mood ring, it would tell me my mood is… melancholy with a dash of hope.

This winter has been brutal. Between morning sickness and catching flu and cold bugs, I have essentially felt rotten almost every day of every week since mid-January. To add to it, my kids have also been sick, which is hard enough in itself, let alone when I’m having a hard time taking care of myself. Plus, it’s dead in the middle of tax season, and it feels like I’m never going to see Turk before 8pm again.

The recession is killing us financially. We make barely too much to qualify for WIC, even with me pregnant with twins, and having free milk and cheese would really help us out. Fun commodities like clothes, furniture, etc. are all going down in price significantly, but the necessities like groceries and gas are going up. We are having to buckle down big time and sacrifice date nights and fun outings with the kids because we need the money for more important things. It’s so crazy to me too, because we have always been excellent with our money. We have always set aside money into savings and even our savings has dwindled to nothing. It’s scary and depressing.

As a result of no money and sick kids and me, we have been spending a lot of time cooped up in the house. That in itself is enough to drive anyone bonkers after a while. I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired and broke.

Adding to this, Turk’s grandparents’ health is fading and that’s so sad. We love them dearly.

There are other more serious things going on in my life, but unfortunately, I can’t talk about them here.

Thankfully, my little family is safe and sound. I have started to feel the very first flutterings from the twins, which is extremely exciting. Bug, though he is testing us and throwing awful tantrums lately, is usually such a sweetheart. Miss Bean, despite her current fever, is being her cute silly little self. Turk and I are so much in love. Though these hard times are difficult, I have noticed that they make our marriage even stronger.

I know, “This too shall pass” but dang, could I have a little sunshine until it does?