Silly Mom Thoughts

My brain is beyond exhausted right now, so I’m going to do a no-brainer blog, but one I think is kind of fun. My friend Liz did this on her blog and I thought it was such a fun idea, I decided to copy her. I’m going to start in January 2005, the month I found out I was pregnant with Bug and put down one or two sentences from one entry each month. It’s cool to see how the story of your life flows through a few sentences each month over the course of a year.

2005 or The Year of the Bug

January 2nd: I hope we have a baby before the end of this journal. Heck, I hope we find out we’re pregnant before the end of this month! (Note: I found out I was pregnant 9 days later, lol.)

February 14th: I just got off the phone with my dad and he told me he thinks this year is going to be a bad year.

March 8th: Still no noticeable belly but I can definitely notice the swelling.

April: No Entries

May 3rd: It’s a boy!

June 27th: All of a sudden I am hungry all the time. It is driving me nuts.

July 13th: So far, I don’t have any stretch marks on my tummy (knock on wood), and I really hope I don’t get them. (Note: HA! I did. Bad.)

August 20th: Next weekend Turk and I are moving! We found a 2bdr apartment with one less bathroom for $150 less per month. We will really need that money.

September 7th: I really want to know when this little guy is going to get here. I hope he’s at least a little early (although I don’t want to be in labor on my birthday), but I can’t get my hopes up because I know first babies are usually late. (Note: He was almost two friggin’ weeks late!)

October 7th: Whew! I have so much to catch up on! (Followed by a long-winded birth story that I started when Bug was 2 weeks old and didn’t get a chance to finish until he was 4 months old!)

November: No Entries

December 5th (my first ever blog): We decided not to get Bug anything for Christmas. We figure this is the only year we’ll be able to get away with it and we’ll let the grandparents spoil him this year. Well, this was fun. Next time, I’ll try to be a little more entertaining.

2006 or Learning to be a parent and mourning the loss of friendships

January 9th: Man, I am so blessed. I have a husband who loves me and finds me sexy at any hour of any day, I have a beautiful, healthy baby boy who just put himself to sleep for the first time in his own crib, we are financially stable, even without me working much at all, our family and friends are all happy and healthy, and we live in a warm apartment and can afford groceries and the occasional night out. (Note: Holy ginormous sentence, Batman!)

February 26th: There is so much I need to write about, but I have been avoiding it because I’m having a hard time “coming to my thoughts.” Plus, I am so confused and feel so… how should I put it… actually, I think “confused” sums it up nicely.

March 2nd: I felt like such a good Mommy today. I spent the day making and freezing babyfood for Bug. (Note: That was quite short lived, lol!)

April 3rd: My little baby is growing up so fast! It makes me sad to know that in no time he’s going to be a toddler, a child, a preteen…

May 10th: When we arrived at Mike’s house, the whole situation became real to me. I was feeling very emotional, but I didn’t let on. There wasn’t that girly touch that I’m used to when I walk into his house.

June 27th: I think this time of year has really got me down. I will probably never get into a bikini again. (Note: Still true, and that’s okay.)

July 10th: For whatever reason, I have had this strong urge lately to try and start up my own business. I feel like I’m a pretty talented and knowledgeable person, but what could I do?

August 1st:  Colby is going to be a year old next month! That absolutely blows my mind.

September 14th: Last Saturday was our last time breastfeeding. Colby has gotten so wiggly and impatient breastfeeding and I am ready to have my boobs back.

October 10th: Argh. MOPS started 2 weeks ago and I had to miss the meeting because Colby had an eye infection. No problem, I’ll just go to the next one. Well, the next one is today. I’m dressed and ready to go, Colby’s dressed and ready to go. I look at my son, and what do I see? His eye infection is back and worse than ever.

November 3rd: I can’t believe that Colby is here forever. He’s mine! I get to experience all of the wonderful-ness and not-so-wonderful-ness of being a parent to this amazing child.

December 6th: Ahh, life. It’s amazing, frustrating, and wonderful all at the same time. Kinda like being a parent. It’s just one big roller-coaster of ups and downs and all you can do is keep your hands inside the ride and hold on.

2007 or The Year of the Bean

January 12th: I have baby fever and I have it BAD!

February 5th: Yay for my new awesome weight loss group the Fat Zappin’ Hotties! (Yeah, I came up with the name all by myself. I’m good like that.)

March 7th: I’m PREGNANT! Holy crap, it’s still weird to say that. We weren’t exactly trying to get pregnant, but we’re still SO excited to have another one on the way.

April 1st: I’m going in for another ultrasound on Tuesday and I’m crossing my fingers that everything is okay. I feel like if it is, I can really, truly breathe easy since I’ll be close to 10 weeks along. (Note: Since Bean was conceived with my IUD in place, I was super worried that I would lose her. Thank goodness, that didn’t happen!)

May 1st: AHHHHHH! I am so sick of being exhausted all the freakin’ time! I get about 10 hours of sleep a night. Then, I take a nap for two hours in the middle of the day while Colby is napping. Even still, I am completely wiped out all day long!

June 3rd: We went and saw a bunch of houses this weekend and found one we really like. We’re looking into making an offer.

July 16th: I had my ultrasound on Friday, and got to see my little one squirming around. I held strong and didn’t find out the sex, and I’m SO glad I did. I’m really excited for the surprise.

August 20th: I think time has stood still. I don’t think August will ever end, nevermind September and most of October.

September 2nd: I realized today that I do the silliest looking things while I’m walking (or, more specifically, waiting at crosswalks) that always involve my water. Take today for instance: I was waiting for my crossing signal and grabbed my water bottle. I brought it up to my NOSE instead of my mouth. Genius. A little while after that I was drinking, missed my mouth completely and spilled water all over my face. Later, I accidentally grabbed Bug’s sippy cup instead of my water bottle and almost took a drink before I realized what was going on. I swear, people passing me must get a HUGE laugh, I know I would!

October 3rd: Today’s walk was, in a word, miserable. I thought that there was a break in the rain, but once we got out there I realized it was still going.

November 1st: When they were trying to get Bean out, her head was stuck. They were pulling really hard at my incision site, trying to get her out of there. They even used a vaccuum, she was stuck so bad. Because of that, I have a ginormous purple bruise along the bottom of my stomach. It hurts.

December 2nd: Well my goal of working out 5 days is soooo not happening. I honestly would have if my kids weren’t both sick and I was getting more than a few hours sleep every night.

2008 or The Year of Finding Balance

January 6th: I am determined to get back into exercising! Now that there are no more football games at home I know I won’t be eating like crap and drinking every other Sunday.

February 4th: I am so done with today! I try to clean Bug’s complete mess of a room, and with each thing I put away, he takes 2 out. So I give him a snack of Goldfish crackers, thinking that might help buy me a couple of minutes to clean. He knocks the entire thing over.

March 11th: I weighed 164 after having Bean in October. I worked my BUTT off when I was pregnant with her, in hopes of getting back to my 148 prepregnancy weight ASAP. Well, after starting Weight Watchers at the end of January, I am extremely excited to say that I am down to 138.5!!!!

April 5th: Turk’s dad came in the door with a box and said, “Lins, I was going to try to mess with you, but then I thought, ’Aw, heck with it, I’ll just give it to her,’” and he handed me a box. I opened it up and saw the word “Inspiron” and thought to myself (or did I actually say it out loud?) “No WAY.” His dad pulled from the box a 17″ Dell Inspiron Laptop computer!!! I am officially spoiled.

May 1st: First love in life: My Family. Second love: Coffee. Oh coffee, how I do I love thee? Let me count the ways…

June 9th: I want to write. I want to submit an article or two to parenting magazines and see if I can get published.

July 18th: I am finally feeling like myself again and it is absolutely wonderful. I can wake up in the morning, be productive, have fun, and not think constantly about death (although those thoughts do still creep up on me). It has been great to feel like my normal, motivated, strong self. (Note: Do not wait until your baby is 8 months old to seek help for postpartum depression.)

August 29th: I found Bug in the maze, overlooking the ball pit. If the nasty smell that wafted my direction didn’t give it away, the huge bulge protruding from his behind would have.

September 24th: I am tired. Seriously, super duper freaking tired. I want to crawl up into a ball and fall asleep on the couch, but I can’t because I’m pretty sure my kids would redecorate my house and eachother in stickers, crayons, and glitter if I wasn’t paying attention.

October 2nd: Have you ever seen those makeover shows where the host stops a complete stranger in public, tells them they really need some help with their style, and make them over?

November 3rd: I have said it before, but I will say it again… parenting my strong-willed, highly spirited toddler has frustrated and pushed me to near hysteria more than anything in my entire life.

December 3rd: I took a pregnancy test today! Aaaaand, it was negative.

I wonder what 2009 will bring from my blogs and my journal. Will 2009 be The Year of Baby #3? The Year Lindsay becomes more famous than J.K. Rowling? The Year Silly Mom Thoughts takes over the world? I guess only time will tell!